94stranger wrote @ March 3, 2009 at 2:49 pm

Sashi, you sound disillusioned.
50% of every human interaction can be changed: one’s own half of it.
There’s always an available option – to learn and grow oneself, however painful the school.
Good luck
94

  94stranger wrote @ May 21, 2009 at 8:59 pm

Yeah, I can identify with someone mourning loss of innocence, trustfulness, naivety.

I guess the only thing after that is whether in that situation you are able to use the expression of that pain through poetry as a way to move on, rather than as a way – unconsciously, even – to try to resist moving.

The only way to handle that, I guess, is to be able to feel whether one is really healing – and if not, to take steps. I had a girlfriend once who left and I couldn’t get over her. Eventually, the only way for me to deal with it was the last thing I really wanted to do – to cut off all contact with her for six months. In fact, this did enable me to begin to heal, whereas as long as I kept seeing her, I couldn’t – I was getting more, not less upset as time went by.

I hope this helps on some level – and good healing to you: I feel that you are a special, genuine, sensitive (and gifted!) soul – and I don’t do vacuous flattery, I promise you.