Lifting lips
From a now swollen nipple
Grinning down at brown pools
Meant for drowning in
Expectantly watching
for some sign of love
on the edge of reason
weary from the games
the unpredictable turn on-turn off-turn on again
eternity stretching out
from your lips to mine
facing each other
wrapped up in tangled limbs
it’s time for the reckoning
choosing that exact moment
to respond
you say
“I don’t love you”- “that’s why”
smiling
like a man surveying his dirty deed
you ask “are you angry with me?”
short of breath
I bite the end of my bottom lip
from inside
determined not to let you see me cry
I let my gaze stand
Though I don’t see you anymore
Falling down your flight of steps
The same night
Slipping
Losing balance
Raw-cool-cement
jolts me back
Blood springing from my spine
The stinging hurt
Comforts me
Sucking away attention from the pools
On the verge of overflow
I want to run away – break free
from your
suffocating embrace
leave you to your tangled desires
uncertain caresses
your almighty confusion-dammit
I promise myself
I will- Yes- I will
tomorrow
Sashikala Premawardhane
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July 2, 2009 at 1:26 pm
You have captured a string of emotions from a angle that is so touching. Great stuff. Keep writing.
July 6, 2009 at 5:37 pm
hi… stumbled on your poems awhile back, and have been reading them intermittently… some poems (and especially this one) reflects the struggles of someone in the throws of a ‘very abusive relationship’… They are all beautiful words. However, if the incidents reflected therein are ‘real’ in any sense, i wonder how it is that you (and so many of us) can subject one’s self to so much ‘invited’ pain. Any thoughts?
(PS: were either of you in any way ‘attached’ to another person at the time..?)
July 6, 2009 at 11:44 pm
poetry for me is about looking at moments and trying to understand them …. to get a sense of where everything is at- does that make sense…?
July 10, 2009 at 11:42 am
yes, that makes sense. I have been writing poetry myself since I was little and at times it helps to tap the subconscience… acquire perspective. But you haven’t quite unswered my question(s) 🙂
July 21, 2009 at 7:38 am
and u thought I wud give it all away he he :0 where can I see yr poetry?
August 7, 2009 at 9:33 am
no, perhaps I couldn’t expect you to ‘give it all away’… 🙂 I dont have a blog, am afraid (not yet). not many have seen my poems… only the few I have posted some on my Face Book profile page. I’ll be happy to show you some…
August 8, 2009 at 10:03 am
pls do would love to read ’em