Many mother’s have lost children
After a decade of peace
On Easter Sunday , in Sri Lanka,
Many more children’s lives were lost
A mother, a wife no more
Just a woman, trying to make
Sense of what happened
Reliving, regretting, each second of that dark day of doom
21st April, 2019
they sauntered casually
In to the house of God
Carrying in backpacks,
The destinies of my children,
Still in prayer…..
Destinies that exploded,
Laying bear the fragility of my island paradise
A thousand what ifs circling,
What if we had gotten up late, what if we hadn’t gone
, what if, what if, what if………
Trying to hold on to fading pictures
Trying to let go of memories of laughter, joy that once filled a home
Trying to live through
A raging battle within
sanity and insanity
Waking up in a sudden cold sweat,
Screams that pierce the heart
The tears that dry up, only to flow over and over again,
Never wanting sleep to end
So that in dreams I can see them,
they don’t visit, though, No
Not even in my dreams
No matter how much I will it
Do I hear their voices?
Are they here?
Just empty spaces
Within and without
Where they once were
Justice for my family
Punishment for the killers
Yes, on some days, I wish for that……
Most days I wonder why I was spared and they were taken
And I live now, do I?
How do I do that?
4 April, 2021
Sashikala Premawardhane
Dedicated to those brave survivors of the Easter Sunday terrorist attacks of 21/04/2019, Sri Lanka
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